May 20
One thing about being out of my comfort zone and out of my Christian community bubble that I grew up in (where those who didn't claim Christianity were to be interacted with only for the express purpose of winning them over), is that I am being exposed more and more to how utterly hopeless and depressing so many people's outlook is. It continues to surprise me. I somehow thought that I was normal in how I saw life and the purpose of motherhood, friendships, marriage and life in general. A majority of my friends (especially those I somewhat keep up with though Facebook) think as I do so I have been disappointed and surprised by those who are sour, overly worried and generally negative about life.
For example, I took part in a clothes exchange the other day where one mother boldly stated (as if she would get a resounding amen in response) that she would undo mothering if she had the chance. She saw her two kids (both under 4 years) a few hours in the morning and a few hours in the evening and that was enough! I felt like she hated being a mother. I didn't know what to say except that I might get better as the children got older.
I love being a mother (so much!). My kids are so sweet and a joy and they usually get along. Sure Hudson is clingy and cries about something every single day. Bt that's part of being 1 1/2 and learning to communicate and share and discovering what it means to be an individual person that's not part of mommy.
I don't do things perfectly, I'm not as creative as I desire to be, sometimes I feel as if my home business takes too much time, I don't have quiet time with God every day nor do I have intentional exercise daily. But, that's ok. I know my weaknesses and accept them and work to improve. It's all part of life.
I know my purpose as a mother is to raise children who will be strong leaders to follow God, stand in their faith through adversity and lead families and peers in humility and purity. Educationally, I desire them to love learning and discovery and continue to be attentive to their natural talents and desires so that I can help them bloom in their gifting.
As a wife, I desire to be kind, respectful and humble in my words and attitudes. I aim to put Daniel before the children in relationship and encourage him in words and actions so that we can be a strong and effective team to raise the children and serve others.
As an individual, my goal is to continue to seek and know God through the Bible, be healthy in body and spirit and challenge myself through my home business and community involvement.
These are my goals. I pray that God leads me to accomplish what I set out to do.
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